Where is my God?

“Where is my God?—does he retire beyond the reach of humble sighs? Are these weak breathings of desire too languid to ascend the skies?” “Teach my weak heart, O gracious Lord, with stronger faith to call thee mine; bid me pronounce the blissful word, my Father—God, with joy divine.” (Anne Steele, 1716-1778)


The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, (Lk 4:18)

For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. (Jn 3:17, 19, 20)

Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. (PS 51:6)

"I have no husband," she replied. (Jn 4:17) Then, leaving her water jar, the woman went back to the town and said to the people, "Come, see a man who told me everything I ever did. Could this be the Christ?" (Jn 4:28-29) So when the Samaritans came to him, they urged him to stay with them, and he stayed two days. (Jn 4:40)

Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. (Rev 3:19-20)

Whoever has my commands and obeys them, he is the one who loves me. He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him." Jesus replied, "If anyone loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me. (Jn 14:21, 23)

But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who love your salvation always say, "The LORD be exalted!" Yet I am poor and needy; may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; O my God, do not delay. (PS 40:16-17)


Dear Reader, the heart of God is to reconcile and relate. God wants you to know Him. The heart of man is to cry out, yet to often remain hidden and shut up in a false sense of security and life; thus crying due to real need, but not understanding, and thereby rejecting, the only real answer. Christ came not to condemn. Do not fear Him. When He approaches you and speaks to you, receive Him. Be honest.

Truth in the inward parts. Keeping the heart’s door shut. Evil hates light because it will be exposed. “I have no husband.” “Come, see.” “They urged him to stay…he stayed.” Friend, have you met Christ in the inward parts of your heart—ever, or recently anew? If not, what do you fear? Loss of yourself? Exposure of what you know yourself to actually be? Christ may initially approach you from the outside, like he did the Samaritan woman, but He desires entrance to the most intimate parts of your life, as when He knocks. Do you sense something within that isn’t set quite right? If you do, don’t let fear (or sin) hold you hostage. Has Christ spoken there? Receive Him there. Agree with Him regarding His view of your life. This will lead to your increased desire to be with Him.

“He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed.” What if the light you believe you have is actually darkness? Christ came to free. We need to be freed, freed from self, sin, the world and Satan. Trust not in yourself. Let Christ deliver you. Can you for a moment envision what such freedom would mean to you? If you desire delivery from yourself, behold Christ.

If you have recently met Christ in the inward part of your heart, what have you experienced? Liberty? Petitioning God to spend more time with you? Do you say with the psalmist "The LORD be exalted!" and “You are my help and my deliverer; O my God, do not delay!” This is true freedom with and in Christ: Praising and Desiring God. If you have recently met Christ in the inward part of your heart, then you do know the blessed joy of His presence at that place and you do acknowledge the ever growing desire for further union with God. Christ will eat with you, and you with Him. Do you now enjoy this meal? Would you like to? Do not withhold Christ’s access to your heart.

“He who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love him and show myself to him… My Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him." Friend, here is the best of the Christian experience—living in the presence of God. As you know, the reality revealed to us by these words is not automatic or a guarantee this side of Heaven. Consider Jesus’ emphasis on God’s word and your emphasis on God’s word. Do you believe Christ’s words regarding His words? Your emphasis on God’s word reveals the degree to which you love Him. How great is your love for Him? Pursue Him freely. He has given His word to you. Both Father and Son will love you, manifest Themselves to you, and establish Their home with you now. What more could you and I ever desire?

“Where is my God?” Know and guard your heart, friend. Jesus came to deliver you, to free you, to establish you, and to enable you to know Him and His Father to the greatest degree possible this side of Heaven. You yourself can prevent this deepest and fullest God intimacy from ever being apart of your life. Don’t let a Christ-less condition be your earthly testimony. Jesus reveals the greatest offer ever. Receive Him in the inward parts always.



“He lives,--the great Redeemer lives:
What joy the blest assurance gives!
And now, before his Father, God,
Pleads the full merit of his blood.

Repeated crimes awake our fears,
And justice armed with frowns appears;
But in the Saviour’s lovely face,
Sweet mercy smiles, and all is peace.

Hence, then, ye black, despairing thoughts;
Above our fears, above our faults,
His powerful intercessions rise,
And guild recedes, and terror dies.

In every dark, distressful hour,
When sin and Satan join their power,
Let this dear hope repel the dart,
That Jesus bears us on his heart.

Great Advocate! Almighty Friend!
On thee our humble hopes depend:
Our cause can never, never fail,
For thou dost plead, and must prevail.”

(Anne Steele, 1716-1778)